july 2007 was when i was first diagnosed. i've been on morphine for the pain for a year now and before that i tried everything from accupuncture to hypnosis to get rid of the pain. living on the morphine feels like hell. my emotions are flat. i do not feel sorry or elated. i don't get goosebumps when i hear chan marshall singing ramblin (wo)man. my heart doesn't twist over the sight of anyone. if i pull myself back i feel so very very very down. i can hardly pull myself from my sitting position. i needed 2010 to be a fresh start. i am missing out on the world from the out post. i just get deeper and deeper in my head from this little corner of my life. i am the only one who can take a hold of my life and get over it all.
1. green tea
2. three mile walk no matter what
3. mainly fresh fruits and veggies
4. taking my pills daily.
